The Strength in Starting Over
Today marks the 53rd time I'll be diving head first into my "health journey". And honestly, I'm over myself. I seem to always fall victim to the donuts in the break-room or the tempting brunch options with friends. But what if I would have remained consistent the first time or ,hell, the 42nd time? In all likelihood, my favorite jeans would slide on like a glove and my bathing suit collection wouldn't be on a hiatus. I would have surpassed all of my #BodyGoals. How hard can it be to stay on track!? Well, life has prove it to be pretty damn hard.
After getting home with my bags of fruits, veggies, and hella water I needed to get my mind wrapped around getting back into the swing of things health and fitness wise. Instead of beating myself up and going down the "You would be in great shape had you blah blah blah" road, I decided to pat myself on the back for gearing back up. For even trying again. There is a different type of strength required when you start over versus getting started for the very first time. When your start for the first time, things are butterflies and peaches. When you are going at it (whatever it may be) for the 50th time, there's a heaviness to it that comes from doubt. Doubt that you'll even make it past day one. You have to fight through all of the bad feels you have about quitting the many times before. I dare you to push-through, it gets better. For instance: A couple of weeks ago, I was in "go-mode". Eating way better, drinking so much water that I became obsessed with how clear my pee was (TMI?), and hitting the gym consistently. I was pushing myself so hard and getting results! A part of that push was dug out of all of the times I had fallen off. Those downfalls fueled my comeback. Those downfalls were not in vain.
Remember that it can't always be all or nothing, sometimes its whatever you have to give after giving to everything else OR everyone else. So whether you are:
Deciding to fight your anxiety again
Get your savings in order (after a shopping trip or 5)
Be a better friend
Do better at work
Try love, AGAIN
Remember that you only lose when you completely throw in the towel and quit. Be certain to pull strength from giving it another go. You're back at it and it'll be better than ever. Even if it's only for today.